Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Breaking Dawn - Chapter 32


COMPANY

The Cullens’ enormous house was more crowded with guests than anyone would assume could possibly be comfortable. It only worked out because none of the visitors slept. Mealtimes were dicey, though. Our company cooperated as best they could. They gave Forks and La Push a wide berth, only hunting out of state; Edward was a gracious host, lending out his cars as needed without so much as a
wince. The compromise made me very uncomfortable, though I tried to tell myself that they’d all be hunting somewhere in the world, regardless.

Jacob was even more upset. The werewolves existed to prevent the loss of human life, and here was rampant murder being condoned barely outside the packs’ borders. But under these circumstances, with Renesmee in acute danger, he kept his mouth shut and glared at the floor rather than the vampires.

I was amazed at the easy acceptance the visiting vampires had for Jacob; the problems Edward had anticipated had never materialized. Jacob seemed more or less invisible to them, not quite a person, but also not food, either. They treated him the way people who are not animal-lovers treat the pets of their friends.

Leah, Seth, Quil, and Embry were assigned to run with Sam for now, and Jacob would have happily joined them, except that he couldn’t stand to be away from Renesmee, and Renesmee was busy fascinating the strange collection of Carlisle’s friends.

We’d replayed the scene of Renesmee’s introduction to the Denali coven a half dozen times. First for Peter and Charlotte, whom Alice and Jasper had sent our way without giving them any explanation at all; like most people who knew Alice, they trusted her instructions despite the lack of information. Alice had told them nothing about which direction she and Jasper were heading. She’d made no
promise to ever see them again in the future.

Neither Peter nor Charlotte had ever seen an immortal child. Though they knew the rule, their negative reaction was not as powerful as the Denali vampires’ had been at first. Curiosity had driven them to allow Renesmee’s “explanation.” And that was it. Now they were as committed to witnessing as Tanya’s family.

Carlisle had sent friends from Ireland and Egypt.

The Irish clan arrived first, and they were surprisingly easy to convince.

Siobhan—a woman of immense presence whose huge body was both beautiful and mesmerizing as it moved in smooth undulations—was the leader, but she and  her hard-faced mate, Liam, were long used to trusting the judgment of their newest coven member. Little Maggie, with her bouncy red curls, was not physically imposing like the other two, but she had a gift for knowing when she   as being lied to, and her verdicts were never contested. Maggie declared that Edward spoke the truth, and so Siobhan and Liam accepted our story absolutely before even touching Renesmee.

Amun and the other Egyptian vampires were another story. Even after two  younger members of his coven, Benjamin and Tia, had been convinced by Renesmee’s explanation, Amun refused to touch her and ordered his coven to leave. Benjamin—an oddly cheerful vampire who looked barely older than a boy and seemed both utterly confident and utterly careless at the same time— persuaded Amun to stay with a few subtle threats about disbanding their alliance.

Amun stayed, but continued to refuse to touch Renesmee, and would not allow his mate, Kebi, to touch her, either. It seemed an unlikely grouping—though the Egyptians all looked so alike, with their midnight hair and olive-toned pallor, that they easily could have passed for a biological family. Amun was the senior member and the outspoken leader. Kebi never strayed farther away from Amun
than his shadow, and I never heard her speak a single word. Tia, Benjamin’s mate, was a quiet woman as well, though when she did speak there was great insight and gravity to everything she said. Still, it was Benjamin whom they all seemed to revolve around, as if he had some invisible magnetism the others depended upon for their balance. I saw Eleazar staring at the boy with wide eyes
and assumed Benjamin had a talent that drew the others to him.

“It’s not that,” Edward told me when we were alone that night. “His gift is so singular that Amun is terrified of losing him. Much like we had planned to keep Renesmee from Aro’s knowledge”—he sighed—“Amun has been keeping Benjamin from Aro’s attention. Amun created Benjamin, knowing he would be special.”

“What can he do?”

“Something Eleazar’s never seen before. Something I’ve never heard of.

Something that even your shield would do nothing against.” He grinned his crooked smile at me. “He can actually influence the elements—earth, wind, water, and fire. True physical manipulation, no illusion of the mind. Benjamin’s still experimenting with it, and Amun tries to mold him into a weapon. But you see how independent Benjamin is. He won’t be used.”

“You like him,” I surmised from the tone of his voice.

“He has a very clear sense of right and wrong. I like his attitude.”

Amun’s attitude was something else, and he and Kebi kept to themselves, though

Benjamin and Tia were well on their way to being fast friends with both the
Denali and the Irish covens. We hoped that Carlisle’s return would ease the
remaining tension with Amun.

Emmett and Rose sent individuals—any nomad friends of Carlisle’s that they
could track down.

 Garrett came first—a tall, rangy vampire with eager ruby eyes and long sandy hair he kept tied back with a leather thong—and it was apparent immediately that he was an adventurer. I imagined that we could have presented him with any challenge and he would have accepted, just to test himself. He fell in quickly with the Denali sisters, asking endless questions about their unusual lifestyle. I wondered if vegetarianism was another challenge he would try, just to see if he could do it.

Mary and Randall also came—friends already, though they did not travel together. They listened to Renesmee’s story and stayed to witness like the others.

Like the Denalis, they considered what they would do if the Volturi did not pause for explanations. All three of the nomads toyed with the idea of standing with us. Of course, Jacob got more surly with each new addition. He kept his distance  when he could, and when he couldn’t he grumbled to Renesmee that someone was going to have to provide an index if anyone expected him to keep all the new bloodsuckers’ names straight.*

Carlisle and Esme returned a week after they had gone, Emmett and Rosalie just a few days later, and all of us felt better when they were home. Carlisle brought one more friend home with him, though friend might have been the wrong term. Alistair was a misanthropic English vampire who counted Carlisle as his closest acquaintance, though he could hardly stand a visit more than once a century.

Alistair very much preferred to wander alone, and Carlisle had called in a lot of favors to get him here. He shunned all company, and it was clear he didn’t have any admirers in the gathered covens.

The brooding dark-haired vampire took Carlisle at his word about Renesmee’s origins, refusing, like Amun, to touch her. Edward told Carlisle, Esme, and me that Alistair was afraid to be here, but more afraid of not knowing the outcome. He was deeply suspicious of all authority, and therefore naturally suspicious of the Volturi. What was happening now seemed to confirm all his fears. “Of course, now they’ll know I was here,” we heard him grumble to himself in the attic—his preferred spot to sulk. “No way to keep it from Aro at this point.
 
Centuries on the run, that’s what this will mean. Everyone Carlisle’s talked to in the last decade will be on their list. I can’t believe I got myself sucked into this mess. What a fine way to treat your friends.”

But if he was right about having to run from the Volturi, at least he had more hope of doing that than the rest of us. Alistair was a tracker, though not nearly as precise and efficient as Demetri. Alistair just felt an elusive pull toward whatever he was seeking. But that pull would be enough to tell him which direction to run—the opposite direction from Demetri.

And then another pair of unexpected friends arrived—unexpected, because neither Carlisle nor Rosalie had been able to contact the Amazons.

“Carlisle,” the taller of the two very tall feline women greeted him when they arrived. Both of them seemed as if they’d been stretched—long arms and legs, long fingers, long black braids, and long faces with long noses. They wore nothing but animal skins—hide vests and tight-fitting pants that laced on the sides with leather ties. It wasn’t just their eccentric clothes that made them seem wild but
everything about them, from their restless crimson eyes to their sudden, darting movements. I’d never met any vampires less civilized.

But Alice had sent them, and that was interesting news, to put it mildly. Why was Alice in South America? Just because she’d seen that no one else would be able to get in touch with the Amazons?

“Zafrina and Senna! But where’s Kachiri?” Carlisle asked. “I’ve never seen you three apart.”

“Alice told us we needed to separate,” Zafrina answered in the rough, deep voice that matched her wild appearance. “It’s uncomfortable to be away from each other, but Alice assured us that you needed us here, while she very much needed Kachiri somewhere else. That’s all she would tell us, except that there was a great hurry… ?” Zafrina’s statement trailed off into a question, and—with the tremor of nerves that never went away no matter how often I did this—I brought Renesmee
out to meet them.

Despite their fierce appearance, they listened very calmly to our story, and then allowed Renesmee to prove the point. They were every bit as taken with Renesmee as any of the other vampires, but I couldn’t help worrying as I watched their swift, jerky movements so close beside her. Senna was always near Zafrina, never speaking, but it wasn’t the same as Amun and Kebi. Kebi’s manner seemed obedient; Senna and Zafrina were more like two limbs of one organism—Zafrina
just happened to be the mouthpiece.

The news about Alice was oddly comforting. Clearly, she was on some obscure mission of her own as she avoided whatever Aro had planned for her. Edward was thrilled to have the Amazons with us, because Zafrina was enormously talented; her gift could make a very dangerous offensive weapon. Not that Edward was asking for Zafrina to side with us in the battle, but if the Volturi did not pause when they saw our witnesses, perhaps they would pause for a different kind of scene.

“It’s a very straightforward illusion,” Edward explained when it turned out that I couldn’t see anything, as usual. Zafrina was intrigued and amused by my immunity—something she’d never encountered before—and she hovered restlessly while Edward described what I was missing. Edward’s eyes unfocused slightly as he continued. “She can make most people see whatever she wants
them to see—see that, and nothing else. For example, right now I would appear to be alone in the middle of a rain forest. It’s so clear I might possibly believe it,
except for the fact that I can still feel you in my arms.”

Zafrina’s lips twitched into her hard version of a smile. A second later, Edward’s eyes focused again, and he grinned back.

“Impressive,” he said.
Renesmee was fascinated with the conversation, and she reached out fearlessly
toward Zafrina.
“Can I see?” she asked.
“What would you like to see?” Zafrina asked.
“What you showed Daddy.”
Zafrina nodded, and I watched anxiously as Renesmee’s eyes stared blankly into
space. A second later, Renesmee’s dazzling smile lit up her face.
“More,” she commanded.
After that, it was hard to keep Renesmee away from Zafrina and her pretty
pictures. I worried, because I was quite sure that Zafrina was able to create
images that were not pretty at all. But through Renesmee’s thoughts I could see
Zafrina’s visions for myself—they were as clear as any of Renesmee’s own
memories, like they were real—and thus judge for myself whether they were
appropriate or not.
Though I didn’t give her up easily, I had to admit it was a good thing Zafrina was
keeping Renesmee entertained. I needed my hands. I had so much to learn, both
physically and mentally, and the time was so short.
My first attempt at learning to fight did not go well.
Edward had me pinned in about two seconds. But instead of letting me wrestle
my way free—which I absolutely could have—he’d leaped up and away from me. I
knew immediately that something was wrong; he was still as stone, staring across
the meadow we were practicing in.
“I’m sorry, Bella,” he said.
“No, I’m fine,” I said. “Let’s go again.”
“I can’t.”
“What do you mean, you can’t? We just started.”
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He didn’t answer.
“Look, I know I’m no good at this, but I can’t get better if you don’t help me.”
He said nothing. Playfully, I sprang at him. He made no defense at all, and we
both fell to the ground. He was motionless as I pressed my lips to his jugular.
“I win,” I announced.
His eyes narrowed, but he said nothing.
“Edward? What’s wrong? Why won’t you teach me?”
A full minute passed before he spoke again.
“I just can’t… bear it. Emmett and Rosalie know as much as I do. Tanya and
Eleazar probably know more. Ask someone else.”
“That’s not fair! You’re good at this. You helped Jasper before—you fought with
him and all the others, too. Why not me? What did I do wrong?”
He sighed, exasperated. His eyes were dark, barely any gold to lighten the black.
“Looking at you that way, analyzing you as a target. Seeing all the ways I can kill
you . . .” He flinched. “It just makes it too real for me. We don’t have so much
time that it will really make a difference who your teacher is. Anyone can teach
you the fundamentals.”
I scowled.
He touched my pouting lower lip and smiled. “Besides, it’s unnecessary. The
Volturi will stop. They will be made to understand.”
“But if they don’t! I need to learn this.”
“Find another teacher.”
That was not our last conversation on the subject, but I never swayed him an inch
from his decision.
Emmett was more than willing to help, though his teaching felt to me a lot like
revenge for all the lost arm-wrestling matches. If I could still bruise, I would have
been purple from head to toe. Rose, Tanya, and Eleazar all were patient and
supportive. Their lessons reminded me of Jasper’s fighting instructions to the
others last June, though those memories were fuzzy and indistinct. Some of the
visitors found my education entertaining, and some even offered assistance. The
nomad Garrett took a few turns—he was a surprisingly good teacher; he
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interacted so easily with others in general that I wondered how he’d never found
a coven. I even fought once with Zafrina while Renesmee watched from Jacob’s
arms. I learned several tricks, but I never asked for her help again. In truth,
though I liked Zafrina very much and I knew she wouldn’t really hurt me, the
wild woman scared me to death.
I learned many things from my teachers, but I had the sense that my knowledge
was still impossibly basic. I had no idea how many seconds I would last against
Alec and Jane. I only prayed that it would be long enough to help.
Every minute of the day that I wasn’t with Renesmee or learning to fight, I was in
the backyard working with Kate, trying to push my internal shield outside of my
own brain to protect someone else. Edward encouraged me in this training. I
knew he hoped I would find a way of contributing that satisfied me while also
keeping me out of the line of fire.
It was just so hard. There was nothing to get a hold of, nothing solid to work with.
I had only my raging desire to be of use, to be able to keep Edward, Renesmee,
and as much of my family as possible safe with me. Over and over I tried to force
the nebulous shield outside of myself, with only faint, sporadic success. It felt like
I was wrestling to stretch an invisible rubber band—a band that would change
from concrete tangibility into insubstantial smoke at any random moment.
Only Edward was willing to be our guinea pig—to receive shock after shock from
Kate while I grappled incompetently with the insides of my head. We worked for
hours at a time, and I felt like I should be covered in sweat from the exertion, but
of course my perfect body didn’t betray me that way. My weariness was all
mental.
It killed me that it was Edward who had to suffer, my arms wrapped uselessly
around him while he winced over and over from Kate’s “low” setting. I tried as
hard as I could to push my shield around us both; every now and then I would get
it, and then it would slip away again.
I hated this practice, and I wished that Zafrina would help instead of Kate. Then
all Edward would have to do was look at Zafrina’s illusions until I could stop him
from seeing them. But Kate insisted that I needed better motivation—by which
she meant my hatred of watching Edward’s pain. I was beginning to doubt her
assertion from the first day we’d met—that she wasn’t sadistic about the use of
her gift. She seemed to be enjoying herself to me.
“Hey,” Edward said cheerfully, trying to hide any evidence of distress in his voice.
Anything to keep me from fighting practice. “That one barely stung. Good job,
Bella.”
I took a deep breath, trying to grasp exactly what I’d done right. I tested the
elastic band, struggling to force it to remain solid as I stretched it away from me.
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“Again, Kate,” I grunted through my clenched teeth.
Kate pressed her palm to Edward’s shoulder.
He sighed in relief. “Nothing that time.”
She raised an eyebrow. “That wasn’t low, either.”
“Good,” I huffed.
“Get ready,” she told me, and reached out to Edward again.
This time he shuddered, and a low breath hissed between his teeth.
“Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!” I chanted, biting my lip. Why couldn’t I get this right?
“You’re doing an amazing job, Bella,” Edward said, pulling me tight against him.
“You’ve really only been working at this for a few days and you’re already
projecting sporadically. Kate, tell her how well she’s doing.”
Kate pursed her lips. “I don’t know. She’s obviously got tremendous ability, and
we’re only beginning to touch it. She can do better, I’m sure. She’s just lacking
incentive.”
I stared at her in disbelief, my lips automatically curling back from my teeth. How
could she think I lacked motivation with her shocking Edward right here in front
of me?
I heard murmurs from the audience that had grown steadily as I practiced—only
Eleazar, Carmen, and Tanya at first, but then Garrett had wandered over, then
Benjamin and Tia, Siobhan and Maggie, and now even Alistair was peering down
from a window on the third story. The spectators agreed with Edward; they
thought I was already doing well.
“Kate…,” Edward said in a warning voice as some new course of action occurred
to her, but she was already in motion. She darted along the curve of the river to
where Zafrina, Senna, and Renesmee were walking slowly, Renesmee’s hand in
Zafrina’s as they traded pictures back and forth. Jacob shadowed them from a
few feet behind.
“Nessie,” Kate said—the newcomers had quickly picked up the irritating
nickname, “would you like to come help your mother?”
“No,” I half-snarled.
Edward hugged me reassuringly. I shook him off just as Renesmee flitted across
the yard to me, with Kate, Zafrina, and Senna right behind her.
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“Absolutely not, Kate,” I hissed.
Renesmee reached for me, and I opened my arms automatically. She curled into
me, pressing her head into the hollow beneath my shoulder.
“But Momma, I want to help,” she said in a determined voice. Her hand rested
against my neck, reinforcing her desire with images of the two of us together, a
team.
“No,” I said, quickly backing away. Kate had taken a deliberate step in my
direction, her hand stretched toward us.
“Stay away from us, Kate,” I warned her.
“No.” She began stalking forward. She smiled like a hunter cornering her prey.
I shifted Renesmee so that she was clinging to my back, still backing away at a
pace that matched Kate’s. Now my hands were free, and if Kate wanted to keep
her hands attached to her wrists, she’d better keep her distance.
Kate probably didn’t understand, never having known for herself the passion of a
mother for her child. She must not have realized just how far past too far she’d
already gone. I was so furious that my vision took on a strange reddish tint, and
my tongue tasted like burning metal. The strength I usually worked to keep
restrained flowed through my muscles, and I knew I could crush her into
diamond-hard rubble if she pushed me to it.
The rage brought every aspect of my being into sharper focus. I could even feel
the elasticity of my shield more exactly now—feel that it was not a band so much
as a layer, a thin film that covered me from head to toe. With the anger rippling
through my body, I had a better sense of it, a tighter hold on it. I stretched it
around myself, out from myself, swaddling Renesmee completely inside it, just in
case Kate got past my guard.
Kate took another calculated step forward, and a vicious snarl ripped up my
throat and through my clenched teeth.
“Be careful, Kate,” Edward cautioned.
Kate took another step, and then made a mistake even someone as inexpert as I
could recognize. Just a short leap away from me, she looked away, turning her
attention from me to Edward.
Renesmee was secure on my back; I coiled to spring.
“Can you hear anything from Nessie?” Kate asked him, her voice calm and easy.
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Edward darted into the space between us, blocking my line to Kate.
“No, nothing at all,” he answered. “Now give Bella some space to calm down,
Kate. You shouldn’t goad her like that. I know she doesn’t seem her age, but she’s
only a few months old.”
“We don’t have time to do this gently, Edward. We’re going to have to push her.
We only have a few weeks, and she’s got the potential to—”
“Back off for a minute, Kate.”
Kate frowned but took Edward’s warning more seriously than she’d taken mine.
Renesmee’s hand was on my neck; she was remembering Kate’s attack, showing
me that no harm was meant, that Daddy was in on it.…
This did not pacify me. The spectrum of light I saw still seemed tainted with
crimson. But I was in better control of myself, and I could see the wisdom of
Kate’s words. The anger helped me. I would learn faster under pressure.
That didn’t mean I liked it.
“Kate,” I growled. I rested my hand on the small of Edward’s back. I could still
feel my shield like a strong, flexible sheet around Renesmee and me. I pushed it
farther, forcing it around Edward. There was no sign of a flaw in the stretchy
fabric, no threat of a tear. I panted with the effort, and my words came out
sounding breathless rather than furious. “Again,” I said to Kate. “Edward only.”
She rolled her eyes but flitted forward and pressed her palm to Edward’s
shoulder.
“Nothing,” Edward said. I heard the smile in his voice.
“And now?” Kate asked.
“Still nothing.”
“And now?” This time, there was the sound of strain in her voice.
“Nothing at all.”
Kate grunted and stepped away.
“Can you see this?” Zafrina asked in her deep, wild voice, staring intently at the
three of us. Her English was strangely accented, her words pulling up in
unexpected places.
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“I don’t see anything I shouldn’t,” Edward said.
“And you, Renesmee?” Zafrina asked.
Renesmee smiled at Zafrina and shook her head.
My fury had almost entirely ebbed, and I clenched my teeth together, panting
faster as I pushed out against the elastic shield; it felt like it was getting heavier
the longer I held it. It pulled back, dragging inward.
“No one panic,” Zafrina warned the little group watching me. “I want to see how
far she can extend.”
There was a shocked gasp from everyone there—Eleazar, Carmen, Tanya, Garrett,
Benjamin, Tia, Siobhan, Maggie—everyone but Senna, who seemed prepared for
whatever Zafrina was doing. The others’ eyes were blank, their expressions
anxious.
“Raise your hand when you get your sight back,” Zafrina instructed. “Now, Bella.
See how many you can shield.”
My breath came out in a huff. Kate was the closest person to me besides Edward
and Renesmee, but even she was about ten feet away. I locked my jaw and
shoved, trying to heave the resisting, resilient safeguard farther from myself. Inch
by inch I drove it toward Kate, fighting the reaction that fought back with every
fraction that I gained. I only watched Kate’s anxious expression while I worked,
and I groaned quietly with relief when her eyes blinked and focused. She raised
her hand.
“Fascinating!” Edward murmured under his breath. “It’s like one-way glass. I can
read everything they’re thinking, but they can’t reach me behind it. And I can
hear Renesmee, though I couldn’t when I was on the outside. I’ll bet Kate could
shock me now, because she’s underneath the umbrella. I still can’t hear you…
hmmm. How does that work? I wonder if . . .”
He continued to mumble to himself, but I couldn’t listen to the words. I ground
my teeth together, struggling to force the shield out to Garrett, who was closest to
Kate. His hand came up.
“Very good,” Zafrina complimented me. “Now—”
But she’d spoken too soon; with a sharp gasp, I felt my shield recoil like a rubber
band stretched too far, snapping back into its original shape. Renesmee,
experiencing for the first time the blindness Zafrina had conjured for the others,
trembled against my back. Wearily, I fought back against the elastic pull, forcing
the shield to include her again.
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“Can I have a minute?” I panted. Since I’d become a vampire, I hadn’t felt the
need to rest even once before this moment. It was unnerving to feel so drained
and yet so strong at the same time.
“Of course,” Zafrina said, and the spectators relaxed as she let them see again.
“Kate,” Garrett called as the others murmured and drifted slightly away,
disturbed by the moment of blindness; vampires were not used to feeling
vulnerable. The tall, sandy-haired Garrett was the only non-gifted immortal who
seemed drawn to my practice sessions. I wondered what the lure was for the
adventurer.
“I wouldn’t, Garrett,” Edward cautioned.
Garrett continued toward Kate despite the warning, his lips pursed in
speculation. “They say you can put a vampire flat on his back.”
“Yes,” she agreed. Then, with a sly smile, she wiggled her fingers playfully at him.
“Curious?”
Garrett shrugged. “That’s something I’ve never seen. Seems like it might be a bit
of an exaggeration. . . .”
“Maybe,” Kate said, her face suddenly serious. “Maybe it only works on the weak
or the young. I’m not sure. You look strong, though. Perhaps you could withstand
my gift.” She stretched her hand out to him, palm up—a clear invitation. Her lips
twitched, and I was pretty sure her grave expression was an attempt to hustle
him.
Garrett grinned at the challenge. Very confidently, he touched her palm with his
index finger.
And then, with a loud gasp, his knees buckled and he keeled over backward. His
head hit a piece of granite with a sharp cracking noise. It was shocking to watch.
My instincts recoiled against seeing an immortal incapacitated that way; it was
profoundly wrong.
“I told you so,” Edward muttered.
Garrett’s eyelids trembled for a few seconds, and then his eyes opened wide. He
stared up at the smirking Kate, and a wondering smile lit his face.
“Wow,” he said.
“Did you enjoy that?” she asked skeptically.
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“I’m not crazy,” he laughed, shaking his head as he got slowly to his knees, “but
that was sure something!”
“That’s what I hear.”
Edward rolled his eyes.
And then there was a low commotion from the front yard. I heard Carlisle
speaking over a babble of surprised voices.
“Did Alice send you?” he asked someone, his voice unsure, slightly upset.
Another unexpected guest?
Edward darted into the house and most of the others imitated him. I followed
more slowly, Renesmee still perched on my back. I would give Carlisle a moment.
Let him warm up the new guest, prepare him or her or them for the idea of what
was coming.
I pulled Renesmee into my arms as I walked cautiously around the house to enter
through the kitchen door, listening to what I couldn’t see.
“No one sent us,” a deep whispery voice answered Carlisle’s question. I was
immediately reminded of the ancient voices of Aro and Caius, and I froze just
inside the kitchen.
I knew the front room was crowded—almost everyone had gone in to see the
newest visitors—but there was barely any noise. Shallow breathing, that was all.
Carlisle’s voice was wary as he responded. “Then what brings you here now?”
“Word travels,” a different voice answered, just as feathery as the first. “We heard
hints that Volturi were moving against you. There were whispers that you would
not stand alone. Obviously, the whispers were true. This is an impressive
gathering.”
“We are not challenging the Volturi,” Carlisle answered in a strained tone. “There
has been a misunderstanding, that is all. A very serious misunderstanding, to be
sure, but one we’re hoping to clear up. What you see are witnesses. We just need
the Volturi to listen. We didn’t—”
“We don’t care what they say you did,” the first voice interrupted. “And we don’t
care if you broke the law.”
“No matter how egregiously,” the second inserted.
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“We’ve been waiting a millennium and a half for the Italian scum to be
challenged,” said the first. “If there is any chance they will fall, we will be here to
see it.”
“Or even to help defeat them,” the second added. They spoke in a smooth
tandem, their voices so similar that less sensitive ears would assume there was
only one speaker. “If we think you have a chance of success.”
“Bella?” Edward called to me in a hard voice. “Bring Renesmee here, please.
Maybe we should test our Romanian visitors’ claims.”
It helped to know that probably half of the vampires in the other room would
come to Renesmee’s defense if these Romanians were upset by her. I didn’t like
the sound of their voices, or the dark menace in their words. As I walked into the
room, I could see that I was not alone in that assessment. Most of the motionless
vampires glared with hostile eyes, and a few—Carmen, Tanya, Zafrina, and
Senna—repositioned themselves subtly into defensive poses between the
newcomers and Renesmee.
The vampires at the door were both slight and short, one dark-haired and the
other with hair so ashy blond that it looked pale gray. They had the same
powdery look to their skin as the Volturi, though I thought it was not so
pronounced. I couldn’t be sure about that, as I had never seen the Volturi except
with human eyes; I could not make a perfect comparison. Their sharp, narrow
eyes were dark burgundy, with no milky film. They wore very simple black clothes
that could pass as modern but hinted at older designs.
The dark one grinned when I came into view. “Well, well, Carlisle. You have been
naughty, haven’t you?”
“She’s not what you think, Stefan.”
“And we don’t care either way,” the blonde responded. “As we said before.”
“Then you’re welcome to observe, Vladimir, but it is definitely not our plan to
challenge the Volturi, as we said before.”

“Then we’ll just cross our fingers,” Stefan began.

“And hope we get lucky,” finished Vladimir.

In the end, we had pulled together seventeen witnesses—the Irish, Siobhan, Liam, and Maggie; the Egyptians, Amun, Kebi, Benjamin, and Tia; the Amazons, Zafrina and Senna; the Romanians, Vladimir and Stefan; and the nomads,

Charlotte and Peter, Garrett, Alistair, Mary, and Randall—to supplement our family of eleven. Tanya, Kate, Eleazar, and Carmen insisted on being counted as part of our family.


Aside from the Volturi, it was probably the largest friendly gathering of mature vampires in immortal history.

We all were beginning to be a little bit hopeful. Even I couldn’t help it. Renesmee had won over so many in such a brief time. The Volturi only had to listen for just the tiniest second. . . .

The last two surviving Romanians—focused only on their bitter resentment of the ones who had overthrown their empire fifteen hundred years earlier—took everything in stride. They would not touch Renesmee, but they showed no aversion to her. They seemed mysteriously delighted by our alliance with the werewolves. They watched me practice my shield with Zafrina and Kate, watched

Edward answer unspoken questions, watched Benjamin pull geysers of water from the river or sharp gusts of wind from the still air with just his mind, and their eyes glowed with their fierce hope that the Volturi had finally met their match.

We did not hope for the same things, but we all hoped.

Breaking Dawn - Chapter 33


FORGERY

“Charlie, we’ve still got that strictly need-to-know company situation going. I
know it’s been more than a week since you saw Renesmee, but a visit is just not a
good idea right now. How about I bring Renesmee over to see you?”
Charlie was quiet for so long that I wondered if he heard the strain beneath my
façade.
But then he muttered, “Need to know, ugh,” and I realized it was just his wariness
of the supernatural that made him slow to respond.
“Okay, kid,” Charlie said. “Can you bring her over this morning? Sue’s bringing
me lunch. She’s just as horrified by my cooking as you were when you first
showed up.”
Charlie laughed and then sighed for the old days.
“This morning will be perfect.” The sooner the better. I’d already put this off too
long.
“Is Jake coming with you guys?”
Though Charlie didn’t know anything about werewolf imprinting, no one could be
oblivious to the attachment between Jacob and Renesmee.
“Probably.” There was no way Jacob would voluntarily miss an afternoon with
Renesmee sans bloodsuckers.
“Maybe I should invite Billy, too,” Charlie mused. “But… hmm. Maybe another
time.”
I was only half paying attention to Charlie—enough to notice the strange
reluctance in his voice when he spoke of Billy, but not enough to worry what that
was about. Charlie and Billy were grown-ups; if there was something going on
between them, they could figure it out for themselves. I had too many more
important things to obsess over.
“See you in a few,” I told him, and hung up.
This trip was about more than protecting my father from the twenty-seven oddly
matched vampires—who all had sworn not to kill anyone in a three-hundred-mile
radius, but still… Obviously, no human being should get anywhere near this
group. This was the excuse I’d given Edward: I was taking Renesmee to Charlie so
that he wouldn’t decide to come here. It was a good reason for leaving the house,
but not my real reason at all.
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“Why can’t we take your Ferrari?” Jacob complained when he met me in the
garage. I was already in Edward’s Volvo with Renesmee.
Edward had gotten around to revealing my after car; as he’d suspected, I had not
been capable of showing the appropriate enthusiasm. Sure, it was pretty and fast,
but I liked to run.
“Too conspicuous,” I answered. “We could go on foot, but that would freak
Charlie out.”
Jacob grumbled but got into the front seat. Renesmee climbed from my lap to his.
“How are you?” I asked him as I pulled out of the garage.
“How do you think?” Jacob asked bitingly. “I’m sick of all these reeking
bloodsuckers.” He saw my expression and spoke before I could answer. “Yeah, I
know, I know. They’re the good guys, they’re here to help, they’re going to save us
all. Etcetera, etcetera. Say what you want, I still think Dracula One and Dracula
Two are creep-tacular.”
I had to smile. The Romanians weren’t my favorite guests, either. “I don’t
disagree with you there.”
Renesmee shook her head but said nothing; unlike the rest of us, she found the
Romanians strangely fascinating. She’d made the effort to speak to them aloud
since they would not let her touch them. Her question was about their unusual
skin and, though I was afraid they might be offended, I was kind of glad she’d
asked. I was curious, too.
They hadn’t seemed upset by her interest. Maybe a little rueful.
“We sat still for a very long time, child,” Vladimir had answered, with Stefan
nodding along but not continuing Vladimir’s sentences as he often did.
“Contemplating our own divinity. It was a sign of our power that everything came
to us. Prey, diplomats, those seeking our favor. We sat on our thrones and
thought ourselves gods. We didn’t notice for a long time that we were changing—
almost petrifying. I suppose the Volturi did us one favor when they burned our
castles. Stefan and I, at least, did not continue to petrify. Now the Volturi’s eyes
are filmed with dusty scum, but ours are bright. I imagine that will give us an
advantage when we gouge theirs from their sockets.”
I tried to keep Renesmee away from them after that.
“How long do we get to hang out with Charlie?” Jacob asked, interrupting my
thoughts. He was visibly relaxing as we pulled away from the house and all its
new inmates. It made me happy that I didn’t really count as a vampire to him. I
was still just Bella.
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“For quite a while, actually.”
The tone of my voice caught his attention.
“Is something going on here besides visiting your dad?”
“Jake, you know how you’re pretty good at controlling your thoughts around
Edward?”
He raised one thick black brow. “Yeah?”
I just nodded, cutting my eyes to Renesmee. She was looking out the window, and
I couldn’t tell how interested she was in our conversation, but I decided not to
risk going any further.
Jacob waited for me to add something else, and then his lower lip pushed out
while he thought about what little I’d said.
As we drove in silence, I squinted through the annoying contacts into the cold
rain; it wasn’t quite cold enough for snow. My eyes were not as ghoulish as they
had been in the beginning—definitely closer to a dull reddish orange than to
bright crimson. Soon they’d be amber enough for me to quit the contacts. I hoped
the change wouldn’t upset Charlie too much.
Jacob was still chewing over our truncated conversation when we got to Charlie’s.
We didn’t talk as we walked at a quick human pace through the falling rain. My
dad was waiting for us; he had the door open before I could knock.
“Hey, guys! It seems like it’s been years! Look at you, Nessie! Come to Grampa! I
swear you’ve grown half a foot. And you look skinny, Ness.” He glared at me.
“Aren’t they feeding you up there?”
“It’s just the growth spurt,” I muttered. “Hey, Sue,” I called over his shoulder. The
smell of chicken, tomato, garlic, and cheese issued from the kitchen; it probably
smelled good to everyone else. I could also smell fresh pine and packing dust.
Renesmee flashed her dimples. She never spoke in front of Charlie.
“Well, come on in out of the cold, kids. Where’s my son-in-law?”
“Entertaining friends,” Jacob said, and then snorted. “You’re so lucky you’re out
of the loop, Charlie. That’s all I’m going to say.”
I punched Jacob lightly in the kidney while Charlie cringed.
“Ow,” Jacob complained under his breath; well, I’d thought I’d punched lightly.
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“Actually, Charlie, I have some errands to run.”
Jacob shot a glance at me but said nothing.
“Behind on your Christmas shopping, Bells? You only have a few days, you
know.”
“Yeah, Christmas shopping,” I said lamely. That explained the packing dust.
Charlie must have put the old decorations up.
“Don’t worry, Nessie,” he whispered in her ear. “I got you covered if your mom
drops the ball.”
I rolled my eyes at him, but in truth, I hadn’t thought about the holidays at all.
“Lunch’s on the table,” Sue called from the kitchen. “C’mon, guys.”
“See you later, Dad,” I said, and exchanged a quick look with Jacob. Even if he
couldn’t help but think about this near Edward, at least there wasn’t much for
him to share. He had no idea what I was up to.
Of course, I thought to myself as I got into the car, it wasn’t like I had much idea,
either.
The roads were slick and dark, but driving didn’t intimidate me anymore. My
reflexes were well up to the job, and I barely paid attention to the road. The
problem was keeping my speed from attracting attention when I had company. I
wanted to be done with today’s mission, to have the mystery sorted out so that I
could get back to the vital task of learning. Learning to protect some, learning to
kill others.
I was getting better and better with my shield. Kate didn’t feel the need to
motivate me anymore—it wasn’t hard to find reasons to feel angry, now that I
knew that was the key—and so I mostly worked with Zafrina. She was pleased
with my extension; I was able to cover almost a ten-foot area for more than a
minute, though it exhausted me. This morning she’d been trying to find out if I
could push the shield away from my mind altogether. I didn’t see what the use of
that would be, but Zafrina thought it would help strengthen me, like exercising
muscles in the stomach and back rather than just the arms. Eventually, you could
lift more weight when all the muscles were stronger.
I wasn’t very good at it. I had only gotten one glimpse of the jungle river she was
trying to show me.
But there were different ways to prepare for what was coming, and with only two
weeks left, I worried that I might be neglecting the most important. Today I
would rectify that oversight.
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I’d memorized the appropriate maps, and I had no problem finding my way to the
address that didn’t exist online, the one for J. Jenks. My next step would be Jason
Jenks at the other address, the one Alice had not given me.
To say that it wasn’t a nice neighborhood would be an understatement. The most
nondescript of all the Cullens’ cars was still outrageous on this street. My old
Chevy would have looked healthy here. During my human years, I would have
locked the doors and driven away as fast as I dared. As it was, I was a little
fascinated. I tried to imagine Alice in this place for any reason, and failed.
The buildings—all three stories, all narrow, all leaning slightly as if bowed by the
pounding rain—were mostly old houses divided up into multiple apartments. It
was hard to tell what color the peeling paint was supposed to be. Everything had
faded to shades of gray. A few of the buildings had businesses on the first floor: a
dirty bar with the windows painted black, a psychic’s supply store with neon
hands and tarot cards glowing fitfully on the door, a tattoo parlor, and a daycare
with duct tape holding the broken front window together. There were no lamps
on inside any of the rooms, though it was grim enough outside that the humans
should have needed the light. I could hear the low mumbling of voices in the
distance; it sounded like TV.
There were a few people about, two shuffling through the rain in opposite
directions and one sitting on the shallow porch of a boarded-up cut-rate law
office, reading a wet newspaper and whistling. The sound was much too cheerful
for the setting.
I was so bemused by the carefree whistler, I didn’t realize at first that the
abandoned building was right where the address I was looking for should exist.
There were no numbers on the dilapidated place, but the tattoo parlor beside it
was just two numbers off.
I pulled up to the curb and idled for a second. I was getting into that dump one
way or another, but how to do so without the whistler noticing me? I could park
the next street over and come through the back.… There might be more witnesses
on that side. Maybe the rooftops? Was it dark enough for that kind of thing?
“Hey, lady,” the whistler called to me.
I rolled the passenger window down as if I couldn’t hear him.
The man laid his paper aside, and his clothes surprised me, now that I could see
them. Under his long ragged duster, he was a little too well dressed. There was no
breeze to give me the scent, but the sheen on his dark red shirt looked like silk.
His crinkly black hair was tangled and wild, but his dark skin was smooth and
perfect, his teeth white and straight. A contradiction.
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“Maybe you shouldn’t park that car there, lady,” he said. “It might not be here
when you get back.”
“Thanks for the warning,” I said.
I shut off the engine and got out. Perhaps my whistling friend could give me the
answers I needed faster than breaking and entering. I opened my big gray
umbrella—not that I cared, really, about protecting the long cashmere sweaterdress
I wore. It was what a human would do.
The man squinted through the rain at my face, and then his eyes widened. He
swallowed, and I heard his heart accelerate as I approached.
“I’m looking for someone,” I began.
“I’m someone,” he offered with a smile. “What can I do for you, beautiful?”
“Are you J. Jenks?” I asked.
“Oh,” he said, and his expression changed from anticipation to understanding.
He got to his feet and examined me with narrowed eyes. “Why’re you looking for
J?”
“That’s my business.” Besides, I didn’t have a clue. “Are you J?”
“No.”
We faced each other for a long moment while his sharp eyes ran up and down the
fitted pearl gray sheath I wore. His gaze finally made it to my face. “You don’t
look like the usual customer.”
“I’m probably not the usual,” I admitted. “But I do need to see him as soon as
possible.”
“I’m not sure what to do,” he admitted.
“Why don’t you tell me your name?”
He grinned. “Max.”
“Nice to meet you, Max. Now, why don’t you tell me what you do for the usual?”
His grin became a frown. “Well, J’s usual clients don’t look a thing like you. Your
kind doesn’t bother with the downtown office. You just go straight up to his fancy
office in the skyscraper.”
I repeated the other address I had, making the list of numbers a question.
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“Yeah, that’s the place,” he said, suspicious again. “How come you didn’t go
there?”
“This was the address I was given—by a very dependable source.”
“If you were up to any good, you wouldn’t be here.”
I pursed my lips. I’d never been much good at bluffing, but Alice hadn’t left me a
lot of alternatives. “Maybe I’m not up to any good.”
Max’s face turned apologetic. “Look, lady—”
“Bella.”
“Right. Bella. See, I need this job. J pays me pretty good to mostly just hang out
here all day. I want to help you, I do, but—and of course I’m speaking
hypothetically, right? Or off the record, or whatever works for you—but if I pass
somebody through that could get him in trouble, I’m out of work. Do you see my
problem?”
I thought for a minute, chewing on my lip. “You’ve never seen anyone like me
here before? Well, sort of like me. My sister is a lot shorter than me, and she has
dark spiky black hair.”
“J knows your sister?”
“I think so.”
Max pondered this for a moment. I smiled at him, and his breathing stuttered.
“Tell you what I’ll do. I’ll give J a call and describe you to him. Let him make the
decision.”
What did J. Jenks know? Would my description mean something to him? That
was a troubling thought.
“My last name is Cullen,” I told Max, wondering if that was too much
information. I was starting to get irritated with Alice. Did I really have to be quite
this blind? She could have given me one or two more words.…
“Cullen, got it.”
I watched as he dialed, easily picking out the number. Well, I could call J. Jenks
myself if this didn’t work.
“Hey J, it’s Max. I know I’m never supposed to call you at this number except in
an emergency. . . .”
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Is there an emergency? I heard faintly from the other end.
“Well, not exactly. It’s this girl who wants to see you. . . .”
I fail to see the emergency in that. Why didn’t you follow normal procedure?
“I didn’t follow normal procedure ’cause she don’t look like any kind of normal—”
Is she a badge?!
“No—”
You can’t be sure about that. Does she look like one of Kubarev’s—?
“No—let me talk, okay? She says you know her sister or something.”
Not likely. What does she look like?
“She looks like . . .” His eyes ran from my face to my shoes appreciatively. “Well,
she looks like a freaking supermodel, that’s what she looks like.” I smiled and he
winked at me, then went on. “Rocking body, pale as a sheet, dark brown hair
almost to her waist, needs a good night’s sleep—any of this sounding familiar?”
No, it doesn’t. I’m not happy that you let your weakness for pretty women
interrupt—
“Yeah, so I’m a sucker for the pretty ones, what’s wrong with that? I’m sorry I
bothered you, man. Just forget it.”
“Name,” I whispered.
“Oh right. Wait,” Max said. “She says her name is Bella Cullen. That help?”
There was a beat of dead silence, and then the voice on the other end was
abruptly screaming, using a lot of words you didn’t often hear outside of truck
stops. Max’s whole expression changed; all the joking vanished and his lips went
pale.
“Because you didn’t ask!” Max yelled back, panicked.
There was another pause while J collected himself.
Beautiful and pale? J asked, a tiny bit calmer.
“I said that, didn’t I?”
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Beautiful and pale? What did this man know about vampires? Was he one of us
himself? I wasn’t prepared for that kind of confrontation. I gritted my teeth.
What had Alice gotten me into?
Max waited for a minute through another volley of shouted insults and
instructions and then glanced at me with eyes that were almost frightened. “But
you only meet downtown clients on Thursdays—okay, okay! On it.” He slid his
phone shut.
“He wants to see me?” I asked brightly.
Max glowered. “You could have told me you were a priority client.”
“I didn’t know I was.”
“I thought you might be a cop,” he admitted. “I mean, you don’t look like a cop.
But you act kind of weird, beautiful.”
I shrugged.
“Drug cartel?” he guessed.
“Who, me?” I asked.
“Yeah. Or your boyfriend or whatever.”
“Nope, sorry. I’m not really a fan of drugs, and neither is my husband. Just say
no and all that.”
Max cussed under his breath. “Married. Can’t catch a break.”
I smiled.
“Mafia?”
“Nope.”
“Diamond smuggling?”
“Please! Is that the kind of people you usually deal with, Max? Maybe you need a
new job.”
I had to admit, I was enjoying myself a little. I hadn’t interacted with humans
much besides Charlie and Sue. It was entertaining to watch him flounder. I was
also pleased at how easy it was not to kill him.
“You’ve got to be involved in something big. And bad,” he mused.
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“It’s not really like that.”
“That’s what they all say. But who else needs papers? Or can afford to pay J’s
prices for them, I should say. None of my business, anyway,” he said, and then
muttered the word married again.
He gave me an entirely new address with basic directions, and then watched me
drive away with suspicious, regretful eyes.
At this point, I was ready for almost anything—some kind of James Bond villain’s
high-tech lair seemed appropriate. So I thought Max must have given me the
wrong address as a test. Or maybe the lair was subterranean, underneath this
very commonplace strip mall nestled up against a wooded hill in a nice family
neighborhood.
I pulled into an open spot and looked up at a tastefully subtle sign that read
JASON SCOTT, ATTORNEY AT LAW.
The office inside was beige with celery green accents, inoffensive and
unremarkable. There was no scent of vampire here, and that helped me relax.
Nothing but unfamiliar human. A fish tank was set into the wall, and a blandly
pretty blond receptionist sat behind the desk.
“Hello,” she greeted me. “How can I help you?”
“I’m here to see Mr. Scott.”
“Do you have an appointment?”
“Not exactly.”
She smirked a little. “It could be a while, then. Why don’t you have a seat while
I—”
April! a man’s demanding voice squawked from the phone on her desk. I’m
expecting a Ms. Cullen shortly.
I smiled and pointed to myself.
Send her in immediately. Do you understand? I don’t care what it’s
interrupting.
I could hear something else in his voice besides impatience. Stress. Nerves.
“She’s just arrived,” April said as soon as she could speak.
What? Send her in! What are you waiting for?
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“Right away, Mr. Scott!” She got to her feet, fluttering her hands as she led the
way down a short hallway, offering me coffee or tea or anything else I might have
wanted.
“Here you are,” she said as she ushered me through the door into a power office,
complete with heavy wooden desk and vanity wall.
“Close the door behind you,” a raspy tenor voice ordered.
I examined the man behind the desk while April made a hasty retreat. He was
short and balding, probably around fifty-five, with a paunch. He wore a red silk
tie with a blue-and-white-striped shirt, and his navy blazer hung over the back of
his chair. He was also trembling, blanched to a sickly paste color, with sweat
beading on his forehead; I imagined an ulcer churning away under the spare tire.
J recovered himself and rose unsteadily from his chair. He reached his hand
across the desk.
“Ms. Cullen. What an absolute delight.”
I crossed to him and shook his hand quickly once. He cringed slightly at my cold
skin but did not seem particularly surprised by it.
“Mr. Jenks. Or do you prefer Scott?”
He winced again. “Whatever you wish, of course.”
“How about you call me Bella, and I’ll call you J?”
“Like old friends,” he agreed, mopping a silk handkerchief across his forehead.
He gestured for me to have a seat and took his own. “I must ask, am I finally
meeting Mr. Jasper’s lovely wife?”
I weighed that for a second. So this man knew Jasper, not Alice. Knew him, and
seemed afraid of him, too. “His sister-in-law, actually.”
He pursed his lips, as if he were grasping for meanings just as desperately as I
was.
“I trust Mr. Jasper is in good health?” he asked carefully.
“I’m sure he is in excellent health. He’s on an extended vacation at the moment.”
This seemed to clear up some of J’s confusion. He nodded to himself and templed
his fingers. “Just so. You should have come to the main office. My assistants there
would have put you straight through to me—no need to go through less
hospitable channels.”
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I just nodded. I wasn’t sure why Alice had given me the ghetto address.
“Ah, well, you’re here now. What can I do for you?”
“Papers,” I said, trying to make my voice sound like I knew what I was talking
about.
“Certainly,” J agreed at once. “Are we talking birth certificates, death certificates,
drivers’ licenses, passports, social security cards… ?”
I took a deep breath and smiled. I owed Max big time.
And then my smile faded. Alice had sent me here for a reason, and I was sure it
was to protect Renesmee. Her last gift to me. The one thing she would know I
needed.
The only reason Renesmee would need a forger was if she was running. And the
only reason Renesmee would be running was if we had lost.
If Edward and I were running with her, she wouldn’t need these documents right
away. I was sure IDs were something Edward knew how to get his hands on or
make himself, and I was sure he knew ways to escape without them. We could
run with her for thousands of miles. We could swim with her across an ocean.
If we were around to save her.
And all the secrecy to keep this out of Edward’s head. Because there was a good
chance that everything he knew, Aro would know. If we lost, Aro would certainly
get the information he craved before he destroyed Edward.
It was as I had suspected. We couldn’t win. But we must have a good shot at
killing Demetri before we lost, giving Renesmee the chance to run.
My still heart felt like a boulder in my chest—a crushing weight. All my hope
faded like fog in the sunshine. My eyes pricked.
Who would I put this on? Charlie? But he was so defenselessly human. And how
would I get Renesmee to him? He was not going to be anywhere close to that
fight. So that left one person. There really had never been anyone else.
I’d thought this through so quickly that J didn’t notice my pause.
“Two birth certificates, two passports, one driver’s license,” I said in a low,
strained tone.
If he noticed the change in my expression, he pretended otherwise.
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“The names?”
“Jacob… Wolfe. And… Vanessa Wolfe.” Nessie seemed like an okay nickname for
Vanessa. Jacob would get a kick out of the Wolfe thing.
His pen scratched swiftly across a legal pad. “Middle names?”
“Just put something generic in.”
“If you prefer. Ages?”
“Twenty-seven for the man, five for the girl.” Jacob could pull it off. He was a
beast. And at the rate Renesmee was growing, I’d better estimate high. He could
be her stepfather.…
“I’ll need pictures if you prefer finished documents,” J said, interrupting my
thoughts. “Mr. Jasper usually liked to finish them himself.”
Well, that explained why J didn’t know what Alice looked like.
“Hold on,” I said.
This was luck. I had several family pictures shoved in my wallet, and the perfect
one—Jacob holding Renesmee on the front porch steps—was only a month old.
Alice had given it to me just a few days before… Oh. Maybe there wasn’t that
much luck involved after all. Alice knew I had this picture. Maybe she’d even had
some dim flash that I would need it before she gave it to me.
“Here you go.”
J examined the picture for a moment. “Your daughter is very like you.”
I tensed. “She’s more like her father.”
“Who is not this man.” He touched Jacob’s face.
My eyes narrowed, and new sweat beads popped out on J’s shiny head.
“No. That is a very close friend of the family.”
“Forgive me,” he mumbled, and the pen began scratching again. “How soon will
you need the documents?”
“Can I get them in a week?”
“That’s a rush order. It will cost twice as—but forgive me. I forgot with whom I
was speaking.”
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Clearly, he knew Jasper.
“Just give me a number.”
He seemed hesitant to say it aloud, though I was sure, having dealt with Jasper,
he must have known that price wasn’t really an object. Not even taking into
consideration the bloated accounts that existed all over the world with the
Cullens’ various names on them, there was enough cash stashed all over the
house to keep a small country afloat for a decade; it reminded me of the way there
were always a hundred fishhooks in the back of any drawer at Charlie’s house. I
doubted anyone would even notice the small stack I’d removed in preparation for
today.
J wrote the price down on the bottom of the legal pad.
I nodded calmly. I had more than that with me. I unclasped my bag again and
counted out the right amount—I had it all paper-clipped into five-thousanddollar
increments, so it took no time at all.
“There.”
“Ah, Bella, you don’t really have to give me the entire sum now. It’s customary for
you to save half to ensure delivery.”
I smiled wanly at the nervous man. “But I trust you, J. Besides, I’ll give you a
bonus—the same again when I get the documents.”
“That’s not necessary, I assure you.”
“Don’t worry about it.” It wasn’t like I could take it with me. “So I’ll meet you here
next week at the same time?”
He gave me a pained look. “Actually, I prefer to make such transactions in places
unrelated to my various businesses.”
“Of course. I’m sure I’m not doing this the way you expect.”
“I’m used to having no expectations when it comes to the Cullen family.” He
grimaced and then quickly composed his face again. “Shall we meet at eight
o’clock a week from tonight at The Pacifico? It’s on Union Lake, and the food is
exquisite.”
“Perfect.” Not that I would be joining him for dinner. He actually wouldn’t like it
much if I did.
I rose and shook his hand again. This time he didn’t flinch. But he did seem to
have some new worry on his mind. His mouth was pinched up, his back tense.
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“Will you have trouble with that deadline?” I asked.
“What?” He looked up, taken off guard by my question. “The deadline? Oh, no.
No worries at all. I will certainly have your documents done on time.”
It would have been nice to have Edward here, so that I would know what J’s real
worries were. I sighed. Keeping secrets from Edward was bad enough; having to
be away from him was almost too much.
“Then I’ll see you in one week.”

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I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn’t touched his piano
since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the car door, I heard the song morph
through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.
I moved slowly as I pulled Renesmee—fast asleep; we’d been gone all day—from
the car. We’d left Jacob at Charlie’s—he’d said he was going to catch a ride home
with Sue. I wondered if he was trying to fill his head with enough trivia to crowd
out the image of the way my face had looked when I’d walked through Charlie’s
door.
As I walked slowly to the Cullen house now, I recognized that the hope and uplift
that seemed almost a visible aura around the big white house had been mine this
morning, too. It felt alien to me now.
I wanted to cry again, hearing Edward play for me. But I pulled it together. I
didn’t want him to be suspicious. I would leave no clues in his mind for Aro if I
could help it.
Edward turned his head and smiled when I came in the door, but kept playing.
“Welcome home,” he said, as if this was just any normal day. As if there weren’t
twelve other vampires in the room involved in various pursuits, and a dozen more
scattered around somewhere. “Did you have a good time with Charlie today?”
“Yes. Sorry I was gone so long. I stepped out to do a little Christmas shopping for
Renesmee. I know it won’t be much of an event, but . . .” I shrugged.
Edward’s lips turned down. He quit playing and spun around on the bench so
that his whole body was facing me. He put one hand on my waist and pulled me
closer. “I hadn’t thought much about it. If you want to make an event of it—”
“No,” I interrupted him. I flinched internally at the idea of trying to fake more
enthusiasm than the bare minimum. “I just didn’t want to let it pass without
giving her something.”
“Do I get to see?”
“If you want. It’s only a little thing.”
Renesmee was completely unconscious, snoring delicately against my neck. I
envied her. It would have been nice to escape reality, even for just a few hours.
Carefully, I fished the little velvet jewelry bag from my clutch without opening the
purse enough for Edward to see the cash I was still carrying.
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“It caught my eye from the window of an antique store while I was driving by.”
I shook the little golden locket into his palm. It was round with a slender vine
border carved around the outside edge of the circle. Edward popped the tiny
catch and looked inside. There was space for a small picture and, on the opposite
side, an inscription in French.
“Do you know what this says?” he asked in a different tone, more subdued than
before.
“The shopkeeper told me it said something along the lines of ‘more than my own
life.’ Is that right?”
“Yes, he had it right.”
He looked up at me, his topaz eyes probing. I met his gaze for a moment, then
pretended to be distracted by the television.
“I hope she likes it,” I muttered.
“Of course she will,” he said lightly, casually, and I was sure in that second that he
knew I was keeping something from him. I was also sure that he had no idea of
the specifics.
“Let’s take her home,” he suggested, standing and putting his arm around my
shoulders.
I hesitated.
“What?” he demanded.
“I wanted to practice with Emmett a little. . . .” I’d lost the whole day to my vital
errand; it made me feel behind.
Emmett—on the sofa with Rose and holding the remote, of course—looked up
and grinned in anticipation. “Excellent. The forest needs thinning.”
Edward frowned at Emmett and then at me.
“There’s plenty of time for that tomorrow,” he said.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” I complained. “There’s no such thing as plenty of time
anymore. That concept does not exist. I have a lot to learn and—”
He cut me off. “Tomorrow.”
And his expression was such that not even Emmett argued.
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I was surprised at how hard it was to go back to a routine that was, after all,
brand new. But stripping away even that little bit of hope I’d been fostering made
everything seem impossible.
I tried to focus on the positives. There was a good chance that my daughter was
going to survive what was coming, and Jacob, too. If they had a future, then that
was a kind of victory, wasn’t it? Our little band must be going to hold their own if
Jacob and Renesmee were going to have the opportunity to run in the first place.
Yes, Alice’s strategy only made sense if we were going to put up a really good
fight. So, a kind of victory there, too, considering that the Volturi had never been
seriously challenged in millennia.
It was not going to be the end of the world. Just the end of the Cullens. The end of
Edward, the end of me.
I preferred it that way—the last part anyway. I would not live without Edward
again; if he was leaving this world, then I would be right behind him.
I wondered idly now and then if there would be anything for us on the other side.
I knew Edward didn’t really believe so, but Carlisle did. I couldn’t imagine it
myself. On the other hand, I couldn’t imagine Edward not existing somehow,
somewhere. If we could be together in any place, then that was a happy ending.
And so the pattern of my days continued, just that much harder than before.
We went to see Charlie on Christmas Day, Edward, Renesmee, Jacob, and I. All of
Jacob’s pack were there, plus Sam, Emily, and Sue. It was a big help to have them
there in Charlie’s little rooms, their huge, warm bodies wedged into corners
around his sparsely decorated tree—you could see exactly where he’d gotten
bored and quit—and overflowing his furniture. You could always count on
werewolves to be buzzed about a coming fight, no matter how suicidal. The
electricity of their excitement provided a nice current that disguised my utter lack
of spirit. Edward was, as always, a better actor than I was.
Renesmee wore the locket I’d given her at dawn, and in her jacket pocket was the
MP3 player Edward had given her—a tiny thing that held five thousand songs,
already filled with Edward’s favorites. On her wrist was an intricately braided
Quileute version of a promise ring. Edward had gritted his teeth over that one,
but it didn’t bother me.
Soon, so soon, I would be giving her to Jacob for safekeeping. How could I be
bothered by any symbol of the commitment I was so relying on?
Edward had saved the day by ordering a gift for Charlie, too. It had shown up
yesterday—priority overnight shipping—and Charlie spent all morning reading
the thick instruction manual to his new fishing sonar system.
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From the way the werewolves ate, Sue’s lunch spread must have been good. I
wondered how the gathering would have looked to an outsider. Did we play our
parts well enough? Would a stranger have thought us a happy circle of friends,
enjoying the holiday with casual cheer?
I think Edward and Jacob both were as relieved as I was when it was time to go.
It felt odd to spend energy on the human façade when there were so many more
important things to be doing. I had a hard time concentrating. At the same time,
this was perhaps the last time I would see Charlie. Maybe it was a good thing that
I was too numb to really register that.
I hadn’t seen my mother since the wedding, but I found I could only be glad for
the gradual distancing that had begun two years ago. She was too fragile for my
world. I didn’t want her to have any part of this. Charlie was stronger.
Maybe even strong enough for a goodbye now, but I wasn’t.
It was very quiet in the car; outside, the rain was just a mist, hovering on the edge
between liquid and ice. Renesmee sat on my lap, playing with her locket, opening
and closing it. I watched her and imagined the things I would say to Jacob right
now if I didn’t have to keep my words out of Edward’s head.
If it’s ever safe again, take her to Charlie. Tell him the whole story someday. Tell
him how much I loved him, how I couldn’t bear to leave him even when my
human life was over. Tell him he was the best father. Tell him to pass my love on
to Renée, all my hopes that she will be happy and well. . . .
I would have to give Jacob the documents before it was too late. I would give him
a note for Charlie, too. And a letter for Renesmee. Something for her to read
when I couldn’t tell her I loved her anymore.
There was nothing unusual about the outside of the Cullen house as we pulled
into the meadow, but I could hear some kind of subtle uproar inside. Many low
voices murmured and growled. It sounded intense, and it sounded like an
argument. I could pick out Carlisle’s voice and Amun’s more often than the
others.
Edward parked in front of the house rather than going around to the garage. We
exchanged one wary glance before we got out of the car.
Jacob’s stance changed; his face turned serious and careful. I guessed that he was
in Alpha mode now. Obviously, something had happened, and he was going to get
the information he and Sam would need.
“Alistair is gone,” Edward murmured as we darted up the steps.
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Inside the front room, the main confrontation was physically apparent. Lining
the walls was a ring of spectators, every vampire who had joined us, except for
Alistair and the three involved in the quarrel. Esme, Kebi, and Tia were the
closest to the three vampires in the center; in the middle of the room, Amun was
hissing at Carlisle and Benjamin.
Edward’s jaw tightened and he moved quickly to Esme’s side, towing me by the
hand. I clutched Renesmee tightly to my chest.
“Amun, if you want to go, no one is forcing you to stay,” Carlisle said calmly.
“You’re stealing half my coven, Carlisle!” Amun shrieked, stabbing one finger at
Benjamin. “Is that why you called me here? To steal from me?”
Carlisle sighed, and Benjamin rolled his eyes.
“Yes, Carlisle picked a fight with the Volturi, endangered his whole family, just to
lure me here to my death,” Benjamin said sarcastically. “Be reasonable, Amun.
I’m committed to do the right thing here—I’m not joining any other coven. You
can do whatever you want, of course, as Carlisle has pointed out.”
“This won’t end well,” Amun growled. “Alistair was the only sane one here. We
should all be running.”
“Think of who you’re calling sane,” Tia murmured in a quiet aside.
“We’re all going to be slaughtered!”
“It’s not going to come to a fight,” Carlisle said in a firm voice.
“You say!”
“If it does, you can always switch sides, Amun. I’m sure the Volturi will
appreciate your help.”
Amun sneered at him. “Perhaps that is the answer.”
Carlisle’s answer was soft and sincere. “I wouldn’t hold that against you, Amun.
We have been friends for a long time, but I would never ask you to die for me.”
Amun’s voice was more controlled, too. “But you’re taking my Benjamin down
with you.”
Carlisle put his hand on Amun’s shoulder; Amun shook it off.
“I’ll stay, Carlisle, but it might be to your detriment. I will join them if that’s the
road to survival. You’re all fools to think that you can defy the Volturi.” He
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scowled, then sighed, glanced at Renesmee and me, and added in an exasperated
tone, “I will witness that the child has grown. That’s nothing but the truth.
Anyone would see that.”
“That’s all we’ve ever asked.”
Amun grimaced, “But not all that you are getting, it seems.” He turned on
Benjamin. “I gave you life. You’re wasting it.”
Benjamin’s face looked colder than I’d ever seen it; the expression contrasted
oddly with his boyish features. “It’s a pity you couldn’t replace my will with your
own in the process; perhaps then you would have been satisfied with me.”
Amun’s eyes narrowed. He gestured abruptly to Kebi, and they stalked past us
out the front door.
“He’s not leaving,” Edward said quietly to me, “but he’ll be keeping his distance
even more from now on. He wasn’t bluffing when he spoke of joining the Volturi.”
“Why did Alistair go?” I whispered.
“No one can be positive; he didn’t leave a note. From his mutters, it’s been clear
that he thinks a fight is inevitable. Despite his demeanor, he actually does care
too much for Carlisle to stand with the Volturi. I suppose he decided the danger
was too much.” Edward shrugged.
Though our conversation was clearly just between the two of us, of course
everyone could hear it. Eleazar answered Edward’s comment like it had been
meant for all.
“From the sound of his mumblings, it was a bit more than that. We haven’t
spoken much of the Volturi agenda, but Alistair worried that no matter how
decisively we can prove your innocence, the Volturi will not listen. He thinks they
will find an excuse to achieve their goals here.”
The vampires glanced uneasily at one another. The idea that the Volturi would
manipulate their own sacrosanct law for gain was not a popular idea. Only the
Romanians were composed, their small half-smiles ironic. They seemed amused
at how the others wanted to think well of their ancient enemies.
Many low discussions began at the same time, but it was the Romanians I
listened to. Maybe because the fair-haired Vladimir kept shooting glances in my
direction.
“I do so hope Alistair was right about this,” Stefan murmured to Vladimir. “No
matter the outcome, word will spread. It’s time our world saw the Volturi for
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what they’ve become. They’ll never fall if everyone believes this nonsense about
them protecting our way of life.”
“At least when we ruled, we were honest about what we were,” Vladimir replied.
Stefan nodded. “We never put on white hats and called ourselves saints.”
“I’m thinking the time has come to fight,” Vladimir said. “How can you imagine
we’ll ever find a better force to stand with? Another chance this good?”
“Nothing is impossible. Maybe someday—”
“We’ve been waiting for fifteen hundred years, Stefan. And they’ve only gotten
stronger with the years.” Vladimir paused and looked at me again. He showed no
surprise when he saw that I was watching him, too. “If the Volturi win this
conflict, they will leave with more power than they came with. With every
conquest they add to their strengths. Think of what that newborn alone could
give them”—he jerked his chin toward me—“and she is barely discovering her
gifts. And the earth-mover.” Vladimir nodded toward Benjamin, who stiffened.
Almost everyone was eavesdropping on the Romanians now, like me. “With their
witch twins they have no need of the illusionist or the fire touch.” His eyes moved
to Zafrina, then Kate.
Stefan looked at Edward. “Nor is the mind reader is exactly necessary. But I see
your point. Indeed, they will gain much if they win.”
“More than we can afford to have them gain, wouldn’t you agree?”
Stefan sighed. “I think I must agree. And that means… ”
“That we must stand against them while there is still hope.”
“If we can just cripple them, even, expose them . . .”
“Then, someday, others will finish the job.”
“And our long vendetta will be repaid. At last.”
They locked eyes for a moment and then murmured in unison. “It seems the only
way.”
“So we fight,” Stefan said.
Though I could see that they were torn, self-preservation warring with revenge,
the smile they exchanged was full of anticipation.
“We fight,” Vladimir agreed.
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I suppose it was a good thing; like Alistair, I was sure the battle was impossible to
avoid. In that case, two more vampires fighting on our side could only help. But
the Romanians’ decision still made me shudder.
“We will fight, too,” Tia said, her usually grave voice more solemn than ever. “We
believe the Volturi will overstep their authority. We have no wish to belong to
them.” Her eyes lingered on her mate.
Benjamin grinned and threw an impish glance toward the Romanians.
“Apparently, I’m a hot commodity. It appears I have to win the right to be free.”
“This won’t be the first time I’ve fought to keep myself from a king’s rule,” Garrett
said in a teasing tone. He walked over and clapped Benjamin on the back. “Here’s
to freedom from oppression.”
“We stand with Carlisle,” Tanya said. “And we fight with him.”
The Romanians’ pronouncement seemed to have made the others feel the need to
declare themselves as well.
“We have not decided,” Peter said. He looked down at his tiny companion;
Charlotte’s lips were set in dissatisfaction. It looked like she’d made her decision.
I wondered what it was.
“The same goes for me,” Randall said.
“And me,” Mary added.
“The packs will fight with the Cullens,” Jacob said suddenly. “We’re not afraid of
vampires,” he added with a smirk.
“Children,” Peter muttered.
“Infants,” Randall corrected.
Jacob grinned tauntingly.
“Well, I’m in, too,” Maggie said, shrugging out from under Siobhan’s restraining
hand. “I know truth is on Carlisle’s side. I can’t ignore that.”
Siobhan stared at the junior member of her coven with worried eyes. “Carlisle,”
she said as if they were alone, ignoring the suddenly formal feel of the gathering,
the unexpected outburst of declarations, “I don’t want this to come to a fight.”
“Nor do I, Siobhan. You know that’s the last thing I want.” He half-smiled.
“Perhaps you should concentrate on keeping it peaceful.”
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“You know that won’t help,” she said.
I remembered Rose and Carlisle’s discussion of the Irish leader; Carlisle believed
that Siobhan had some subtle but powerful gift to make things go her way—and
yet Siobhan didn’t believe it herself.
“It couldn’t hurt,” Carlisle said.
Siobhan rolled her eyes. “Shall I visualize the outcome I desire?” she asked
sarcastically.
Carlisle was openly grinning now. “If you don’t mind.”
“Then there is no need for my coven to declare itself, is there?” she retorted.
“Since there is no possibility of a fight.” She put her hand back on Maggie’s
shoulder, pulling the girl closer to her. Siobhan’s mate, Liam, stood silent and
expressionless.
Almost everyone else in the room looked mystified by Carlisle and Siobhan’s
clearly joking exchange, but they didn’t explain themselves.
That was the end of the dramatic speeches for the night. The group slowly
dispersed, some off to hunt, some to while away the time with Carlisle’s books or
televisions or computers.
Edward, Renesmee, and I went to hunt. Jacob tagged along.
“Stupid leeches,” he muttered to himself when we got outside. “Think they’re so
superior.” He snorted.
“They’ll be shocked when the infants save their superior lives, won’t they?”
Edward said.
Jake smiled and punched his shoulder. “Hell yeah, they will.”
This wasn’t our last hunting trip. We all would hunt again nearer to the time we
expected the Volturi. As the deadline was not exact, we were planning to stay a
few nights out in the big baseball clearing Alice had seen, just in case. All we
knew was that they would come the day that the snow stuck to the ground. We
didn’t want the Volturi too close to town, and Demetri would lead them to
wherever we were. I wondered who he would track in, and guessed that it would
be Edward since he couldn’t track me.
I thought about Demetri while I hunted, paying little attention to my prey or the
drifting snowflakes that had finally appeared but were melting before they
touched the rocky soil. Would Demetri realize that he couldn’t track me? What
would he make of that? What would Aro? Or was Edward wrong? There were
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those little exceptions to what I could withstand, those ways around my shield.
Everything that was outside my mind was vulnerable—open to the things Jasper,
Alice, and Benjamin could do. Maybe Demetri’s talent worked a little differently,
too.
And then I had a thought that brought me up short. The half-drained elk dropped
from my hands to the stony ground. Snowflakes vaporized a few inches from the
warm body with tiny sizzling sounds. I stared blankly at my bloody hands.
Edward saw my reaction and hurried to my side, leaving his own kill undrained.
“What’s wrong?” he asked in a low voice, his eyes sweeping the forest around us,
looking for whatever had triggered my behavior.
“Renesmee,” I choked.
“She’s just through those trees,” he reassured me. “I can hear both her thoughts
and Jacob’s. She’s fine.”
“That’s not what I meant,” I said. “I was thinking about my shield—you really
think it’s worth something, that it will help somehow. I know the others are
hoping that I’ll be able to shield Zafrina and Benjamin, even if I can only keep it
up for a few seconds at a time. What if that’s a mistake? What if your trust in me
is the reason that we fail?”
My voice was edging toward hysteria, though I had enough control to keep it low.
I didn’t want to upset Renesmee.
“Bella, what brought this on? Of course, it’s wonderful that you can protect
yourself, but you’re not responsible for saving anyone. Don’t distress yourself
needlessly.”
“But what if I can’t protect anything?” I whispered in gasps. “This thing I do, it’s
faulty, it’s erratic! There’s no rhyme or reason to it. Maybe it will do nothing
against Alec at all.”
“Shh,” he hushed me. “Don’t panic. And don’t worry about Alec. What he does is
no different than what Jane or Zafrina does. It’s just an illusion—he can’t get
inside your head any more than I can.”
“But Renesmee does!” I hissed frantically through my teeth. “It seemed so
natural, I never questioned it before. It’s always been just part of who she is. But
she puts her thoughts right into my head just like she does with everyone else. My
shield has holes, Edward!”
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I stared at him desperately, waiting for him to acknowledge my terrible
revelation. His lips were pursed, as if he was trying to decide how to phrase
something. His expression was perfectly relaxed.
“You thought of this a long time ago, didn’t you?” I demanded, feeling like an
idiot for my months of overlooking the obvious.
He nodded, a faint smile pulling up one corner of his mouth. “The first time she
touched you.”
I sighed at my own stupidity, but his calm had mellowed me some. “And this
doesn’t bother you? You don’t see it as a problem?”
“I have two theories, one more likely than the other.”
“Give me the least likely first.”
“Well, she’s your daughter,” he pointed out. “Genetically half you. I used to tease
you about how your mind was on a different frequency than the rest of ours.
Perhaps she runs on the same.”
This didn’t work for me. “But you hear her mind just fine. Everyone hears her
mind. And what if Alec runs on a different frequency? What if—?”
He put a finger to my lips. “I’ve considered that. Which is why I think this next
theory is much more likely.”
I gritted my teeth and waited.
“Do you remember what Carlisle said to me about her, right after she showed you
that first memory?”
Of course I remembered. “He said, ‘It’s an interesting twist. Like she’s doing the
exact opposite of what you can.’”
“Yes. And so I wondered. Maybe she took your talent and flipped it, too.”
I considered that.
“You keep everyone out,” he began.
“And no one keeps her out?” I finished hesitantly.
“That’s my theory,” he said. “And if she can get into your head, I doubt there’s a
shield on the planet who could keep her at bay. That will help. From what we’ve
seen, no one can doubt the truth of her thoughts once they’ve allowed her to show
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them. And I think no one can keep her from showing them, if she gets close
enough. If Aro allows her to explain. . . .”
I shuddered to think of Renesmee so close to Aro’s greedy, milky eyes.
“Well,” he said, rubbing my tight shoulders. “At least there’s nothing that can
stop him from seeing the truth.”
“But is the truth enough to stop him?” I murmured.
For that, Edward had no answer.

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TALENTED

“What is the werewolves’ part in this?” Tanya asked then, eyeing Jacob.

Jacob spoke before Edward could answer. “If the Volturi won’t stop to listen about Nessie, I mean Renesmee,” he corrected himself, remembering that Tanya would not understand his stupid nickname, “we will stop them.”

“Very brave, child, but that would be impossible for more experienced fighters than you are.”

“You don’t know what we can do.”

Tanya shrugged. “It is your own life, certainly, to spend as you choose.”

Jacob’s eyes flickered to Renesmee—still in Carmen’s arms with Kate hovering
over them—and it was easy to read the longing in them.

“She is special, that little one,” Tanya mused. “Hard to resist.”

“A very talented family,” Eleazar murmured as he paced. His tempo was increasing; he flashed from the door to Carmen and back again every second. “A mind reader for a father, a shield for a mother, and then whatever magic this extraordinary child has bewitched us with. I wonder if there is a name for what she does, or if it is the norm for a vampire hybrid. As if such a thing could ever be considered normal! A vampire hybrid, indeed!”

“Excuse me,” Edward said in a stunned voice. He reached out and caught

Eleazar’s shoulder as he was about to turn again for the door. “What did you just call my wife?”

Eleazar looked at Edward curiously, his manic pacing forgotten for the moment.

“A shield, I think. She’s blocking me now, so I can’t be sure.”

I stared at Eleazar, my brows furrowing in confusion. Shield? What did he mean about my blocking him? I was standing right here beside him, not defensive in any way.

“A shield?” Edward repeated, bewildered.

“Come now, Edward! If I can’t get a read on her, I doubt you can, either. Can you hear her thoughts right now?” Eleazar asked.

“No,” Edward murmured. “But I’ve never been able to do that. Even when she
was human.”

“Never?” Eleazar blinked. “Interesting. That would indicate a rather powerful latent talent, if it was manifesting so clearly even before the transformation. I can’t feel a way through her shield to get a sense of it at all. Yet she must be raw still—she’s only a few months old.” The look he gave Edward now was almost exasperated. “And apparently completely unaware of what she’s doing. Totally
unconscious. Ironic. Aro sent me all over the world searching for such anomalies, and you simply stumble across it by accident and don’t even realize what you have.” Eleazar shook his head in disbelief.

I frowned. “What are you talking about? How can I be a shield? What does that even mean?” All I could picture in my head was a ridiculous medieval suit of armor.

Eleazar leaned his head to one side as he examined me. “I suppose we were overly formal about it in the guard. In truth, categorizing talents is a subjective, haphazard business; every talent is unique, never exactly the same thing twice. But you, Bella, are fairly easy to classify. Talents that are purely defensive, that protect some aspect of the bearer, are always called shields. Have you ever tested
your abilities?  Blocked anyone besides me and your mate?”
 
It took me few seconds, despite how quickly my new brain worked, to organize
my answer.

“It only works with certain things,” I told him. “My head is sort of… private. But it
doesn’t stop Jasper from being able to mess with my mood or Alice from seeing
my future.”

“Purely a mental defense.” Eleazar nodded to himself. “Limited, but strong.”
“Aro couldn’t hear her,” Edward interjected. “Though she was human when they
met.”

Eleazar’s eyes widened.

“Jane tried to hurt me, but she couldn’t,” I said. “Edward thinks Demetri can’t
find me, and that Alec can’t bother me, either. Is that good?”

Eleazar, still gaping, nodded. “Quite.”

“A shield!” Edward said, deep satisfaction saturating his tone. “I never thought of
it that way. The only one I’ve ever met before was Renata, and what she did was
so different.”

Eleazar had recovered slightly. “Yes, no talent ever manifests in precisely the
same way, because no one ever thinks in exactly the same way.”

“Who’s Renata? What does she do?” I asked. Renesmee was interested, too,
leaning away from Carmen so that she could see around Kate.

“Renata is Aro’s personal bodyguard,” Eleazar told me. “A very practical kind of
shield, and a very strong one.”

I vaguely remembered a small crowd of vampires hovering close to Aro in his
macabre tower, some male, some female. I couldn’t remember the women’s faces
in the uncomfortable, terrifying memory. One must have been Renata.

“I wonder…,” Eleazar mused. “You see, Renata is a powerful shield against a physical attack. If someone approaches her—or Aro, as she is always close beside him in a hostile situation—they find themselves… diverted. There’s a force around her that repels, though it’s almost unnoticeable. You simply find yourself going a different direction than you planned, with a confused memory as to why
you wanted to go that other way in the first place. She can project her shield several meters out from herself. She also protects Caius and Marcus, too, when they have a need, but Aro is her priority.

“What she does isn’t actually physical, though. Like the vast majority of our gifts, it takes place inside the mind. If she tried to keep you back, I wonder who would win?” He shook his head. “I’ve never heard of Aro’s or Jane’s gifts being thwarted.”

“Momma, you’re special,” Renesmee told me without any surprise, like she was commenting on the color of my clothes.

I felt disoriented. Didn’t I already know my gift? I had my super-self-control that had allowed me to skip right over the horrifying newborn year. Vampires only had one extra ability at most, right?

Or had Edward been correct in the beginning? Before Carlisle had suggested that my self-control could be something beyond the natural, Edward had thought my restraint was just a product of good preparation—focus and attitude, he’d declared.

Which one had been right? Was there more I could do? A name and a category
for what I was?

“Can you project?” Kate asked interestedly.

“Project?” I asked.

“Push it out from yourself,” Kate explained. “Shield someone besides yourself.”

“I don’t know. I’ve never tried. I didn’t know I should do that.”

“Oh, you might not be able to,” Kate said quickly. “Heavens knows I’ve been
working on it for centuries and the best I can do is run a current over my skin.”

I stared at her, mystified.

“Kate’s got an offensive skill,” Edward said. “Sort of like Jane.”

I flinched away from Kate automatically, and she laughed.

“I’m not sadistic about it,” she assured me. “It’s just something that comes in
handy during a fight.”

Kate’s words were sinking in, beginning to make connections in my mind. Shield
someone besides yourself, she’d said. As if there were some way for me to include
another person in my strange, quirky silent head.

I remembered Edward cringing on the ancient stones of the Volturi castle turret.

Though this was a human memory, it was sharper, more painful than most of the
others—like it had been branded into the tissues of my brain.

What if I could stop that from happening ever again? What if I could protect him?

Protect Renesmee? What if there was even the faintest glimmer of a possibility
that I could shield them, too?

“You have to teach me what to do!” I insisted, unthinkingly grabbing Kate’s arm.

“You have to show me how!”

Kate winced at my grip. “Maybe—if you stop trying to crush my radius.”

“Oops! Sorry!”

“You’re shielding, all right,” Kate said. “That move should have about shocked
your arm off. You didn’t feel anything just now?”

“That wasn’t really necessary, Kate. She didn’t mean any harm,” Edward
muttered under his breath. Neither of us paid attention to him.

“No, I didn’t feel anything. Were you doing your electric current thing?”

“I was. Hmm. I’ve never met anyone who couldn’t feel it, immortal or otherwise.”

“You said you project it? On your skin?”

Kate nodded. “It used to be just in my palms. Kind of like Aro.”

“Or Renesmee,” Edward interjected.

“But after a lot of practice, I can radiate the current all over my body. It’s a good  defense. Anyone who tries to touch me drops like a human that’s been Tasered. It only downs him for a second, but that’s long enough.”

I was only half-listening to Kate, my thoughts racing around the idea that I might be able to protect my little family if I could just learn fast enough. I wished fervently that I might be good at this projecting thing, too, like I was somehow mysteriously good at all the other aspects of being a vampire. My human life had not prepared me for things that came naturally, and I couldn’t make myself trust
this aptitude to last.

It felt like I had never wanted anything so badly before this: to be able to protect
what I loved.

Because I was so preoccupied, I didn’t notice the silent exchange going on
between Edward and Eleazar until it became a spoken conversation.

“Can you think of even one exception, though?” Edward asked.

I looked over to make sense of his comment and realized that everyone else was
already staring at the two men. They were leaning toward each other intently,

Edward’s expression tight with suspicion, Eleazar’s unhappy and reluctant.

“I don’t want to think of them that way,” Eleazar said through his teeth. I was
surprised at the sudden change in the atmosphere.

“If you’re right—,” Eleazar began again.

Edward cut him off. “The thought was yours, not mine.”

“If I’m right… I can’t even grasp what that would mean. It would change
everything about the world we’ve created. It would change the meaning of my life.

What I have been a part of.”

“Your intentions were always the best, Eleazar.”

“Would that even matter? What have I done? How many lives . . .”

Tanya put her hand on Eleazar’s shoulder in a comforting gesture. “What did we
miss, my friend? I want to know so that I can argue with these thoughts. You’ve
never done anything worth castigating yourself this way.”

“Oh, haven’t I?” Eleazar muttered. Then he shrugged out from under her hand
and began his pacing again, faster even than before.

Tanya watched him for half a second and then focused on Edward. “Explain.”


Edward nodded, his tense eyes following Eleazar as he spoke. “He was trying to understand why so many of the Volturi would come to punish us. It’s not the way they do things. Certainly, we are the biggest mature coven they’ve dealt with, but in the past other covens have joined to protect themselves, and they never presented much of a challenge despite their numbers. We are more closely bonded, and that’s a factor, but not a huge one.

“He was remembering other times that covens have been punished, for one thing
or the other, and a pattern occurred to him. It was a pattern that the rest of the
guard would never have noticed, since Eleazar was the one passing the pertinent
intelligence privately to Aro. A pattern that only repeated every other century or
so.”
“What was this pattern?” Carmen asked, watching Eleazar as Edward was.
“Aro does not often personally attend a punishing expedition,” Edward said. “But
in the past, when Aro wanted something in particular, it was never long before
evidence turned up proving that this coven or that coven had committed some
unpardonable crime. The ancients would decide to go along to watch the guard
administer justice. And then, once the coven was all but destroyed, Aro would
grant a pardon to one member whose thoughts, he would claim, were particularly
repentant. Always, it would turn out that this vampire had the gift Aro had
admired. Always, this person was given a place with the guard. The gifted
vampire was won over quickly, always so grateful for the honor. There were no
exceptions.”
“It must be a heady thing to be chosen,” Kate suggested.
“Ha!” Eleazar snarled, still in motion.
“There is one among the guard,” Edward said, explaining Eleazar’s angry
reaction. “Her name is Chelsea. She has influence over the emotional ties
between people. She can both loosen and secure these ties. She could make
someone feel bonded to the Volturi, to want to belong, to want to please them. . .
.”
Eleazar came to an abrupt halt. “We all understood why Chelsea was important.
In a fight, if we could separate allegiances between allied covens, we could defeat
them that much more easily. If we could distance the innocent members of a
coven emotionally from the guilty, justice could be done without unnecessary
brutality—the guilty could be punished without interference, and the innocent
could be spared. Otherwise, it was impossible to keep the coven from fighting as a
whole. So Chelsea would break the ties that bound them together. It seemed a
great kindness to me, evidence of Aro’s mercy. I did suspect that Chelsea kept our
own band more tightly knit, but that, too, was a good thing. It made us more
effective. It helped us coexist more easily.”
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This clarified old memories for me. It had not made sense to me before how the
guard obeyed their masters so gladly, with almost lover-like devotion.
“How strong is her gift?” Tanya asked with an edge to her voice. Her gaze quickly
touched on each member of her family.
Eleazar shrugged. “I was able to leave with Carmen.” And then he shook his head.
“But anything weaker than the bond between partners is in danger. In a normal
coven, at least. Those are weaker bonds than those in our family, though.
Abstaining from human blood makes us more civilized—lets us form true bonds
of love. I doubt she could turn our allegiances, Tanya.”
Tanya nodded, seeming reassured, while Eleazar continued with his analysis.
“I could only think that the reason Aro had decided to come himself, to bring so
many with him, is because his goal is not punishment but acquisition,” Eleazar
said. “He needs to be there to control the situation. But he needs the entire guard
for protection from such a large, gifted coven. On the other hand, that leaves the
other ancients unprotected in Volterra. Too risky—someone might try to take
advantage. So they all come together. How else could he be sure to preserve the
gifts that he wants? He must want them very badly,” Eleazar mused.
Edward’s voice was low as a breath. “From what I saw of his thoughts last spring,
Aro’s never wanted anything more than he wants Alice.”
I felt my mouth fall open, remembering the nightmarish pictures I had imagined
long ago: Edward and Alice in black cloaks with bloodred eyes, their faces cold
and remote as they stood close as shadows, Aro’s hands on theirs.… Had Alice
seen this more recently? Had she seen Chelsea trying to strip away her love for
us, to bind her to Aro and Caius and Marcus?
“Is that why Alice left?” I asked, my voice breaking on her name.
Edward put his hand against my cheek. “I think it must be. To keep Aro from
gaining the thing he wants most of all. To keep her power out of his hands.”
I heard Tanya and Kate murmuring in disturbed voices and remembered that
they hadn’t known about Alice.
“He wants you, too,” I whispered.
Edward shrugged, his face suddenly a little too composed. “Not nearly as much. I
can’t really give him anything more than he already has. And of course that’s
dependent on his finding a way to force me to do his will. He knows me, and he
knows how unlikely that is.” He raised one eyebrow sardonically.
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Eleazar frowned at Edward’s nonchalance. “He also knows your weaknesses,”
Eleazar pointed out, and then he looked at me.

“It’s nothing we need to discuss now,” Edward said quickly.

Eleazar ignored the hint and continued. “He probably wants your mate, too, regardless. He must have been intrigued by a talent that could defy him in its human incarnation.”

Edward was uncomfortable with this topic. I didn’t like it, either. If Aro wanted me to do something—anything—all he had to do was threaten Edward and I would comply. And vice versa.

Was death the lesser concern? Was it really capture we should fear?

Edward changed the subject. “I think the Volturi were waiting for this—for some pretext. They couldn’t know what form their excuse would come in, but the plan was already in place for when it did come. That’s why Alice saw their decision before Irina triggered it. The decision was already made, just waiting for the pretense of a justification.”

“If the Volturi are abusing the trust all immortals have placed in them…,” Carmen
murmured.

“Does it matter?” Eleazar asked. “Who would believe it? And even if others could be convinced that the Volturi are exploiting their power, how would it make any difference? No one can stand against them.”

“Though some of us are apparently insane enough to try,” Kate muttered.

Edward shook his head. “You’re only here to witness, Kate. Whatever Aro’s goal, I don’t think he’s ready to tarnish the Volturi’s reputation for it. If we can take away his argument against us, he’ll be forced to leave us in peace.”

“Of course,” Tanya murmured.

No one looked convinced. For a few long minutes, nobody said anything.

Then I heard the sound of tires turning off the highway pavement onto the Cullens’ dirt drive.

“Oh crap, Charlie,” I muttered. “Maybe the Denalis could hang out upstairs until—”

“No,” Edward said in a distant voice. His eyes were far away, staring blankly at the door. “It’s not your father.” His gaze focused on me. “Alice sent Peter and Charlotte, after all. Time to get ready for the next round.”